A SOULFUL TRANSFORMATION ~ A Reflections On the Winter Solstice
As we approach the winter solstice —the longest night and a time when the new Light begins to enter the world—I am reminded I too am being renewed.
A human life is a soulful dilemma. It invites the ego’s undoing at the crossroads of grief, celebration and renewal.
These are spaces fraught with the dilemma of being human, and the choices we make.
These are the spaces of soulful transformations.
This past year I have journeyed through such spaces. The following are my reflections on each space and the choices I have made.
Perhaps you might recognize yourself in them.
SPACE 1 - MINERAL
I am constantly forgetting. Yesterday’s knowledge is never complete.
In each moment I am being taken apart and re-membered — put back together and reminded of why, when, who, what and where I am.
A question is answered.
A page is turned.
I feel confused.
A new mystery unfolds.
I begin again.
I choose to be quiet.
I choose to forget.
I choose to allow myself to be re-membered.
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SPACE 2 - NATURE
I am constantly moving into unfamiliar spaces. I am facing uncertainty even as I am surprised…sometimes pleasantly.
Every moment is a new adventure.
I choose to explore and embody all that I am.
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SPACE 3 - FIRE
I am being seen completely and seeing myself. I feel exposed and unable to hide no matter how I try. I cannot see the next moment until it arises.
I say I am walking by faith.
I feel invisible.
I choose to allow myself to be seen.
I choose to see beauty.
I choose to be strong.
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SPACE 4 - WATER
I grieve for my losses and betrayals.
I enjoy deep relationships and I am loved, yet I still yearn for companionship.
It seems I am never satisfied.
I choose to let go.
I choose to be merciful.
I choose to be full and confident.
I choose to trust life’s comings and goings.
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SPACE 5 - EARTH
Even as I am gratefully receiving and celebrating new life, I know chaos, disorder, seasons of birth and death.
I look for a refuge.
I long to be held.
I choose to allow life to be.
I choose to honor the dignity in all things.
I choose to rest.
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These spaces and their dilemmas offer signposts on a path to our personal truth: our WHY, and WHAT, and WHO, and WHEN we truly are.
Behind your earliest pains lies the land of your vision.
Pause to remember it.
Inside every passion is your fuel for eternity.
Gather them all.
Your talent illuminates you and makes you unable to hide, no matter how hard you try.
So be strong.
Your gift is real; even when you dare not name it, it knows you and has claimed you.
Let it be.
Step by step you have arrived to find only yourself waiting in timeless welcoming repose. So run no more.
But first these are the gatekeepers which you must honor — feelings of irrelevance, stuck-ness, rejection, loneliness and chaos.
Each whispers its truth: “…here is your WHY, this is your WHEN, remember WHO, this is your WHAT, and here is WHERE you are now.”
Ours is a journey through the eye of a needle. It is riddled with uncertainty, blinded by fantasies and is walked alone.
This road asks you to forget, so that you can be re-membered; to be lost so that you can be found; to go blind so that you can be re-imagined; to let go so you can be held; and to rest now in the work already done.
If only we will.
In this the season of Light, may we each make our own way, gently.
InBLOOM Always,
Olubode
